I believe there is a moment in everyone’s life where they have to let go of something. Whatever it may be it happens. Its never easy but it seems that life happens this way. When I was a kid I always wondered what happened when you let go of a balloon as it floated up to the sky. When you don’t know much about what is up above the clouds you can dream. Now that I know what happens to a balloon because I know what’s up there it’s not always as exciting but still fun to see a balloon floating up into the wonder we cant just walk up and see. And of course I still wonder where it ends up after being let go even though when the balloon arrives at its final destination its not the same as when it left.
Letting go is never easy. I remember when my friend Anna past away letting her go was hard. I couldn’t imagine when I first got a message from her just before our DTS in New Zealand that just four months after our school ended and seven months after meeting her that she would get called home to hang out with Jesus.
Every time I’ve left a place I’ve had to let go of something. When I left New Zealand I let go of it not knowing if I would come back or what would happen. I left a family I had there and heaps of people I truly still love and care about. When I left Sweden I let go of friends and many other things that I never dreamed I would come back to or want to come back to.
Letting go of friends, dreams or places is never easy. I’ve let go of many things in my life and not just to watch them float into the sky. Ive let go of friends, dreams and places and had to wonder why. God does crazy things. Sometimes so big we don’t grasp what is going on. I dream big in real life. I guess for me it makes sense because when I dream in my sleep I don’t usually remember them when it comes to sleepy time again unless I take note of the dream somewhere.
Matthew 6.5-14 tells us how we should pray. Often I find myself praying for something deeply and over and over especially if that place or person is meaningful to me. Funny enough I’ve been praying for something that I was repeating over and over and when we went through bible study this past Sunday I found myself wondering, “am I praying for this with empty phrases?” The Bible says that you shouldn’t “heap up empty phrases as the Gentiles do, for they think that they will be heard for their many words.” (Matthew 6.7) It also says that the Father knows what you need before you ask Him and then goes on to give you a way to pray (also known as the Lord’s Prayer). Helpful yes, but I often get confused. The Lord knows the heart. He knows where we stand. So if I am praying for something I often wonder, “Okay God this is special to me, you know this already, I am praying for it over and over and with the same mind and heart and similar phrases, what’s going on here, what am I to do? Please teach me how to pray the right way with your will in mind. Thanks”
Recently I came to a realisation that I have a few things I will have to/will be letting go of with this new season upon me. Friends are the hardest to let go of. I generally love people with a heart that I praise God for giving me. Places are next for me as the hardest to let go of. Dreams come final. I dream of things and when I do I hold them in the place of well if they come to fruition then they come to fruition but if they don’t then God’s plan was for something else. Having come to laying down a relationship of someone I care about has been a challenge. Also realising that the home I grew up in will no longer be home in a short bit has been as well a challenge to let go. I often forget that I can’t do anything without God. When I’ve try to do things on my own they haven’t worked out so well. Hurt and tears with pain and sadness have only followed. Yes its hard to let God in and let Him do work especially when He calls you to let go of the thing or person or dream or place you’re praying about, but when God speaks we know its good and when we let Him work its for the best. A new season is upon and saying it will be easy would be a lie, but knowing God is good in every season, makes the adventure worth the trip.
The band the Passenger put it best when they said,
“Well you only need the light when it’s burning low, Only miss the sun when it’s starts to snow, Only know your lover when you let her go, Only know you’ve been high when you’re feeling low, Only hate the road when you’re missin’ home, Only know your lover when you’ve, let her go, And you let her go, Staring at the bottom of your glass, Hoping one day you will make a dream last, The dreams come slow and goes so fast, You see her when you close your eyes, Maybe one day you will understand why, Everything you touch all it dies, Because you only need the light when it’s burning low, Only miss the sun when it’s starts to snow, Only know your lover when you’ve let her go, Only know you’ve been high when you’re feeling low, Only hate the road when you’re missin’ home, Only know your lover when you’ve let her go, Staring at the ceiling in the dark, Same ol’ empty feeling in your heart, Love comes slow and it goes so fast, Well you see her when you fall asleep, But to never to touch and never to keep, Because you loved her to much, And you dive too deep, Because you only need the light when it’s burning low, Only miss the sun when it’s starts to snow, Only know your lover when you’ve let her go, Only know you’ve been high when you’re feeling low, Only hate the road when you’re missin’ home, Only know your lover when you’ve let her go, And you let her go”
It’s natural to miss things when they are gone. I miss long light filled summers in Sweden, especially now that it’s getting darker earlier. I missed being able to swim in the river this year because of no rain. I miss real authentic Mexican food from Mexico, I miss the kids I’ve worked with in Jamaica, Fiji, New Zealand and the kids that have grown up and moved on from the children’s ministry I’ve worked with. I miss food from different places and cultures and people around the world. That’s life, things happen the best choice we have is to let God be present and remember He always has a better plan, a bigger dream and its more amazing then we could think of.
Lisa Simpson made a good point (yes I think cartoon characters can sometimes say good meaningful things),
“Sure life is full of pain and drudgery but the trick it to enjoy the few perfect experiences we’re given in the moment.”
Letting God do work when we learn to let go is never easy. But life isn’t always about happy endings sometimes its about the stories along the way, the things we learn, the people that come and go and the love we share and show. Time is the greatest gift that can be given. It shows the greatest love God originally intended. While we can collect items from times in life give them away and get them back, time is something we can never get back. Moments we spend with someone or people or in someplace can’t be taken back. Time and moments leave memories and the good memories we never let fade. God is always good, no mater the season no matter the time, He is always there for those of us that love Him.